I was laid off today.
And if I didn’t need the money, I wouldn’t care at all. But I do. Need the money.
Since I’m not going to work for a bit, I wish it was summertime. I would be in Maine with a big stack of books by the weekend.
I find alarm clocks to be quite uncivilized. When I got home, I went upstairs to get the dog out of his crate, and the very next thing I did after setting him free was to turn the alarm off. My dog was happy to see me and he’ll be even happier in the A.M. when I don’t leave him.
I can blog every day if I want.
I need to work on Linked-in .
If I had just a little extra money, just a little, I’d pack up my dog and my car and head to Florida for a couple of weeks/months. But the economy has been unkind to me over the last few years and I am out of money. All the way out. Goddammitalltohell. Maybe I can sell something. I have stuff. Laughing. But not too much. I’m serious. Kind of. Anyone want service for 12 – Old Country Roses with tons of extra pieces. And quite a bit of Waterford Crystal – pattern Kildare? And jewelry – I can make you a deal. I have an extra fridge in the basement – great for keeping your beer cold. I’m laughing at this but I do have stuff to sell. Craig’s List here I come.
My friend Susie is a very good friend. She came right over this afternoon with coconut decaf iced coffee and flowers. I am lucky to have her.
I wish I could retire.
Once I was unemployed for a very long time – 20 months. When I was feeling desperate, I sat and looked around my condo and asked myself if I lost everything, would it matter? I thought about what I would want to have, to keep, what was important to me. I looked at everything on the first floor and the only thing I really really cared about was my dog. I still feel the same way. That is very liberating.
When I was 40, I had cancer. I lived. Apparently. I know what is important. Really truly important. Again. Liberating.
I hope I don’t lose my condo. I don’t want to have to do this but I think I’m going to look for a roommate. It would help a great deal. Anyone know anyone?
I finished my Literacy Volunteers training last week and I went over there tonight for my observation. I left with the names of my students. I’m excited and nervous. I want to do a good job at this. It’s important.
Perhaps I will take this opportunity to clean the basement and strip the wallpaper in my living room and just paint everything a nice peaceful off-white color like the rest of this place. I really hate the wallpaper. Lots.
I’m going to try really really really hard to stay positive.
I’m going to go to bed soon and read my book. I’m going to get up in the morning and make coffee and then lists and phone calls and a plan.
Wish me luck and send me good juju.